Let's Be Honest

 
Artist: Paypaya Art 

So, I just cried my eyes out upon experiencing a flood of emotions caused by realization.
I am ending a book which had forty days and forty nights worth of exercises to go over. I was divinely led to One Day My Soul Just Opened Up by Iyanla Vanzant. As I began reading it - it felt as if she was speaking specifically to me in such a synchronistic way.
As I read the last few pages of her book she begins to explain the importance of clarity and surrendering to a Higher Power. I felt myself restrict. "My HP only seems to want to keep me from what I want, lately." Then a thought faster than the first one appeared, "What if what the HP is offering is what you *truly* want but simply aren't willing to be honest with yourself about?" Then a song came on the radio that spoke to me & I began reading about how Iyanla spoke with her HP for the first time. S/he told her that s/he didn't need anything in return because the Divine already is all. The Divine is simply giving with no expectations.
This means the guidance I had been getting which I believed to be suppressing and constricting me were actually a helping hand trying to assist me in what I *truly* wanted within.
"You need to tell the truth." It was another clear, concise thought. I remembered growing up and struggling with being honest with my parents. I lied to get out of trouble. As a teenager I lied in big ways. But when I told the truth - it felt SO much better. Another realization is that I've struggled with "finding my voice." I would draw pictures growing up that said, "Don't Speak." And it would be women with sewn shut mouths or no mouth at all. I certainly wasn't the quiet type so it was more of a metaphor than a literal expression.
I may speak but how much truth are in my words? You can't be honest with others unless you are willing to be honest with yourself.
After contemplating/crying about this and being in awe of how much I could *feel* Divine speaking to me through these passages; I flipped over to the next page. "A Clear Day." And under that is written, "Tell the Truth." I cry a good bit more. Be obedient...Have discipline and order. All of these things were things I have been working on the passed year. How could I be spoken to so directly through someone else's book?

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6uxsHVqGEQ

What is a successful life?

8/16/12

(New Moon)

If you ever wonder if you're successful in life - remember this; you're here. Right now, you're here. All you needed was to show up. And here you are - everything else is your best [even if it doesn't feel like your best].

[I set New Moon intentions on the next few pages of my journal and one particular intention intuitively stood out to me]

• Community. I am aware of my gifts and what I wish to share. I interact with the oneness of the world, all those in it, and I. I am forgiving and guiltless while standing my ground. Less and less of my life is governed by lack, limitation, worry, fear, indignation, jealousy and bitterness. I lovingly listen to my emotions as guides and don't make them wrong. I am no longer a prisoner of guilt and feelings of unworthiness. I am not a martyr nor am I a savior. I am a friend, a creationist and a lover or love fighter. I connect with the sacred heart of others - I speak and hear with openness and honesty. 

 

Follow the Synchronicity!

8/3/12

"People need stories more than bread. They teach us how to live."
It's time to start writing again. Time to follow the synchronicities.

Stand true to you

*Before I flipped open to this page in my journal - I had planned to write on a story after posting...Confirmation much? hahaha!

A Magical Faerie Princess

Artist: Mairin Kareli


Tales of a Creationist - part two
*This is continuing on with the journal I wrote from in my previous post. I opened to a random page & felt connected with it. 

Elizabeth

November 8th, 2011
11:11 pm

Now, I'm 18 and I want to begin truly living as a woman who can hold her own.

My dream? To give something very special to this world. I want to inspire the world to be overjoyed & full of gratitude with the very same joy & gratitude that I feel! Because, the way I feel is truly like nothing else I've ever felt.

I want to give back everything I have to the world.
I want to be like a magical faerie princess in other people's lives.

God, can I create a world of wondrous magic here?

A place where laughter never ends and every dream comes true. A place to be free and soar -
a place where anything is possible through the power of Love!

*And another excerpt from October 26th, 2011 that really stood out to me:

You're either committed to your priorities or to your pressures and what defines you is what you commit yourself to.

Tales of a Creationist

This is a new blog that I started which is going to feature entries from paper journals of mine. Whenever I post, I plan to "tune in" and open to the page which I will write out onto this blog. More will be added soon but for now, I will start with my first post.

Tonight, we will be reading from the journal which Aymee & Brian gave to me as a gift for my birthday:

Tales of a Creationist 
By Elizabeth
Liz
Morgan

On the first panel before any of the plain pages even start I had scribbled out;

I
do my best
And I
love myself all the
way
through and through

Above that, in cursive, I wrote;

why judge the
judger?
Why not feeling feel compassion,
for there is great love here!

And at the very bottom, also in cursive;

Room 4

big mistakes         Love Big